爱人比较痛苦，还是被爱？

I always thought I had loved someone who doesnt love me just like how I loved him... Ok... I know its messy... need some digestion huh? Let me break this sentence...

I always thought

I had loved someone who doesnt love me

Just like how I loved him...

Sometime I think I might think too much... I always tell myself that I cannot fall into love too deeply... the more I fell... the more pain will be caused... Did I eventually giving in all my love to JunLiang? A few months later I still struggling... after that bastard wasted my 3 years of youth... and yeah... I'm 20... with a 35 year old guy? who cares? at least I found my love :)

Haha... this figure is scary... but ya... when fate comes who knows right? I didnt thought I would find a bf and nv did I even try... I was even stuck with that bastard... under his control... under the stress he given me... in the end? telling me he loves me... yeap... when one loss something/someone in which he thinks "No matter what, he/she will stay with me..." he will panick...

Treasure is how I used to think... but guess that treasuring eventually causes me in deep bad severe injuries... Until someone rescued me and healed my wounds... Took me out of his control and stay by my side... He is JunLiang... Thanks darling... you let me finally feel that I've been loved...

幸福的感觉真好。。被爱还是比较幸福的。。。