Numerous Of TIMES!!!!

From the day I started blogging till today.... from the day I started worry for him till broken up till today... Did he ever give me any chances?? Absolutely no... so why hold on???

I just feel that I'm the most dumbest person for not confronting him for my rights... YES!!! He did care for me, he did whatever a nice FRIEND would ever did and even more than that.... but to me... all these are just "paying back" for the sake of paying back my kindness to him ever since we got steadied together...

I used to be a girl that is so much believe in love just like all normal young girls... someone who would do whatever just for him, lending him money... Yes, I admit, I lent him money and it even hit 1000 dollars before.... in the end what did I get??? Non-stops of lies, quarrels, arguements, scoldings, and even fights!!!

If thats the case why did he asked me back when he chased me out of his house just becos I went out with Yida??? WHY???? Should have just let me go and I wouldnt be suffering today!!!

Somehow I just feel that ever since the first day we met, got steadied, broke up, revealing lies, till today... he nv loved me and not even liked me... I am just a REPLACEMENT for his EX-GF!!! and who the hell would tell his ex-gf that

"Oh, you are just a replacement to me... Play play nia mah..."

Ok... unless he's the bastard of the bastards... but hey... here the problem is... he didnt admit that he didnt even loved me before becos he din wanna have that dirty spot on his name.... Shine and clear of dust huh? BULLSHIT!!!

If I were to be the god or something I would just punish him to have no more gd life in future!! He'll have double retributions of what he did to me...